16.10.13

I should take Prozac


I don't want to get over you. I guess I could take 
a sleeping pill and sleep at will and not have to 
go through what I go through. I guess I should take 
Prozac, right, and just smile all night at somebody new,
somebody not too bright but sweet and kind who would 
try to get you off my mind. I could leave this agony behind
which is just what I'd do if I wanted to, but I don't 
want to get over you cause I don't want to get over love. 

I could listen to my therapist, pretend you don't exist 
and not have to dream of what I dream of; I could listen 
to all my friends and go out again and pretend it's enough, 
or I could make a career of being blue--I could dress 
in black and read Camus, smoke clove cigarettes and drink 
vermouth like I was 17, that would be a scream, but I 
don't want to get over you.